Losing a mother is the deepest sorrows a heart can know. Nothing on this earth can ever replace the love and care of a parent. It was that fateful day 8th Nov,2020 that within minutes our lives were shattered and everything changed forever. Mom was always known for her grace,elegance and smiling personality. She was diagonised with breast cancer on 7th February 2016. She was upset and shaken on hearing this but ad a family, we kept pushing her continuously not allowing her thoughts and moods to go down a tunnel.It was this moment when the real struggle began. She was treated by the most competent doctors at one of the best hospitals in Mumbai. The four n half year journey was an absolute roller coaster ride managing her mood swings.Every part of the treatment moulded mom into a different human. From the breast surgery,to the chemotherapy and to the radiation..everything just changed her completely. Time passed by leading one thing to another but the smile on her face wouldn't wear off.30th Sept,2020(dad's 83rd birthday) was the day things took a sudden turn and that smile never got back. Mom's cancer had spread to the brain which led to memory loss,her not recognising anybody and so on.The only words she would utter were"let me go". Still as a family,we stood strong helping her through this and the moment she would recognise us,it would be a moment of joy. Each day got even more challenging because she was completely bed ridden and never in our wildest dreams did we imagine a smiling face to be crying in pain and wanting to go. The last time I met her on 5th Nov,2020,the last words words she uttered to me were "God bless u".I got emotional and walked away thanking her but not able to look her in the eye.I had no clue that these would be the last words that she actually spoke.The next day,she had a food pipe inserted which never allowed her to talk for 2 days. And then it was that day which I always scared to face.The death of someone closest to my heart..someone who put herself in difficulty to see me at ease,someone who would keep the last morsel of food I loved for me so that I could relist it. Her going away has taken away an integral part of me with her.Her death has changed me in many ways and now I have an aging father who I'm very proud of for taking care of himself and managing things all by himself at the age of 83.I have read/seen many love stories for the best one is still my parent's love story. We as a family cherish the happy times we spent with mom but for me,the grief still seems very difficult to cope up with. Every minute in the day is spent remembering Maa.I know she's in a happier world away from the suffering and spreading her light there but we miss her beyond words. Will continue to love her till I breathe my last. ❤️
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